I totally went berserk in the kitchen today… It’s been gradually building up. I do the things that I know how my boss wants things to be done in the kitchen. It’s hers, anyways. So why shouldn’t it?? Yeah, I may sound like some bloody bootlicker but, say what you want, think what you like. I can’t help it. I try to pass on her ways and preferences but it doesn’t seem to catch on. Am I not trying hard enough or is it that people just have difficulty getting it? I’m through and over with being the bitch—fussing, nagging, complainin’—here. I need a break. I know that people don’t like it when I’m obnoxious especially when I’m JUST a lowly Cook 1. ‘hell, who the f**k does she think she is, being so bossy?! She’s not the boss, just the boss’s pet!’  Yeah, yeah, yeah….I can just hear it being said out loud. But hey, at least I’m direct, I shout it out loud and get things off my chest, instead of boiling quietly and stabbing people in the back, isn’t that worse?

Work is work. Period. I want to get things done(quickly preferably), and done, right. What it the point of doing things twice and wasting time?! I can accept mistakes if they are put to good use but making the same mistakes over and over and over again….no. No….nooo….NO!

Maybe sometimes I care & I bother too much. Maybe it’s just time for me to mind my own business and do my own things. Maybe I care too much about people who don’t give a fuck about me. It’s disappointing. Would it be better for you all if I just left you alone?

I don’t know…..someone enlighten me? I’m open to suggestions/discussions etc.

P.S. Thanks for cheering me up when I came home today. Meant alot.