How long have I been in this storm
So overwhelmed by the ocean’s shapeless form
Water’s getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

I know you didn’t bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Cause I’m so used to living underneath the surface

I have to try to stop taking people/things for granted too. I’m also guilty of the crime. Things that have happened lately has made me feel that life is so fragile, so weak. Here this very moment, gone the next. I try my best, sometimes…. I appreciate the things people do for me, especially the small ones. They tend to be overlooked.. Folding the ‘blankie’ may be a small thing, but it never failed to make me smile.

Work-wise, I’m very grateful to have ah lian around on my table. She is of such great help. She’s great company & it’s always so quiet when she’s off. She really makes a difference. I miss having Geby on our table..and feeza…never fails to crack me up. I love these 3 little devils. Makes work not seem like work sometimes.

I’m on the bus now, and it’s cold and wet. Windows are frosted n air-con seems to be on full blast. Brrr…..

Staring out the window, I’m thinkin…’hmmm….how nice if a kacham puteh man comes up n starts selling hot, steaming chickpeas…wah….yummy!’ AND…d sudden blaring of horns bring me back to the present. Damn. Anti-climax…im hungry… N bored..(obviously!)

Thank you, you, for the gifts… I really like them. Hopefully I can fit in though!! So sweet of you to think of me while shopping! Aww….. :) Still haven’t passed you your present yet….Oooooops!!!! Sorry…..

Too many things goin on lately. Have to see you before you leave, ok?? Even though I’ll be seeing you soon..

I wish my pots & pans would grow wings & start attacking her. And all the utensils would start flying sharp-edged towards her face! Argh… Whats the point of going to a slimming ctr & getting yourself looking slimmer when the inside is made up of mangled rotten & decomposed shit?! Damn it, I’m in a blue-black mood tonight.

My CEOs are away in Sipadan & Kapalai..Oh, I miss the clear blue waters & the ocean life. I wanna get away. I’m not really needed anyway. I should just disappear for a while.

Don’t know why but I feel that it’s so easy for people to take others for granted. It’s so simple to wanna keep giving but then it’s even easier to keep taking and not appreciating. I feel uncomfortable today. I feel I can’t breathe. I can’t help but feel that sometimes people compare me to others & it makes me feel I’m not good enough. I’m not good enough. I’m NOT good enough. I don’t know how much more or what else I can do.

I’m starting to have lotsa fun cooking…heh…been lookin at cookbooks more than baking books of late. Heh..the same goes with my boss!! Ha! So no guilt in that department!

I had lotsa fun in my kitchen last night! WE. COOKED. INDIAN…………Chole Chaat(some chickpea thingy that was totally Yummilicious!!), Chappati, Naan, Palak Paneer….Even made our own cheese & yoghurt!!! I’m SO proud!! Not shy right…:P pffft….The naan was a bit of a disappointment but I’m gonna try again!! Not only was the cooking fun, but the grocery shopping was fantastic too!! Love shopping for stuff in Lil’ India… Only thing is, if you plonk me there alone, I’d be a goner. I’m an idiot with roads. Not all, but most. Hee….

Hmm…apparently I’m getting wrinkles from smiling too much now…better go get a wrinkle iron!!!

Gotta go, busy now!