I’ve been trying to concentrate with a lot of difficulty lately. Mind’s somewhere else. I try to smile as much as I can so that people around me don’t feel so affected, but it seems to need tremendous effort to do it. Every time I try to smile, it hurts more.

I seem to be back at where I was a few years ago. I feel the same feelings, emotions, hurt & helplessness. Only this time I realise there is a streak of anger.

But thanks to F, Pa, SY, Pr…these 2 nights were a little easier. They made me laugh so much. Helped me push the ‘issues’ a little further back into my mind momentarily.

Yesterday, we went to Barracks for a private xmas lunch. On the guest list were Boss, Frances, Geby, Pauline, Priscilia, Jasmine & myself. We had an exchange of gifts & of course, a fabulous time.

Afterwards,we stopped by Centre Ps for some desserts & back to my place for an alcoholic xmas toast! Followed by shopping at Great world city. Fell in love with a dress at Zara…Fits perfect BUT…finance is on the downside after present buying..so too bad for me!