I’ve just been on a 1st date with someone. Not exactly the first..It’s kinda complicated to explain. I didn’t know it was one until the middle of it though. I’m not daft ok, just not in my wildest dreams.

Didn’t expect to hear the things I heard, neither did I expect the conversation to be as such. I was shocked, speechless & with some kinda delayed reaction. Not that it was all bad. There were things I’ve been wanting to say for such a long time but due to the sensitive circumstance/s, I didn’t know if it was the right time to let it leak out. I was afraid of the consequences-very much so. I can’t afford the risk.

It was a nice walk back to my place. Lotsa things going through my head. It was a toughie trying to work out the thoughts goin on up there in my head & to respond promptly to my date. I didn’t want to seem rude but there’s really too much. He thinks too much sometimes & maybe I’m guilty of hesitating more.

What should I do? Sit around and wait some more? a little more?

To be honest, his absence on the 14th will be disappointing to me-very much so. Hurts too…but I know that my dear sis made the effort to celebrate my birthday specially for me so I will try not to let it get me down. I totally appreciate it & I cannot, CANNOT ask for anything more than that. And I’m very happy & excited!!!

Thanks in advance, Sis!!!!! *MUACKS* Love ya lots!!!!