Kurenai’s birthday dinner tonight & went to Peperoni Pizzeria at Greenwood Ave. Nice yummy pizzas!! Think I ate more than 1 whole pizza myself! ate tons of desserts & only 3 shooters.

Anyway, came back to find out that I have like 32.5kg of meringue to make tomorrow morning. Think I’d better wake up at 3.30am..if not, I’ll be panicking. Work ONLY gets crazier & crazier….I want a break…tired…

Better go get some sleep now…only left with about 3+hrs of rest left…ZZZzzzZZZzzzzZzzzzz………….

Works a bitch today(actually not just today)-first of all because I’m sposed to be off. But I’m not. It’s 8.13pm and I’m still here. Been working since before lunch. Got a real challenge at work & I’m totally stressed. It’s insane. Nothing seems to be going smoothly. I’m so busy & stressed out that I don’t even reply to my messages. And my apologies to those whom I haven’t replied. BUT I don’t feel ilke talking, I don’t even feel like eating dinner now.

Got a pc of bad news in the afternoon. Ugh…..what could potentially get worse?? DIE if I do, DIE if I don’t. So…what moves DO I have? None. Zilch. Sad.

All this is making feel angry. Angry & disgruntled. I’m always stuck in situations like this. I hate it. I hate it. One of these days, I’ll make it to an anger management class. Even if it means going for just the first day. Otherwise, I’d prolly beat S.H. to killing every single person in the kitchen.

Today was my last class @ Shermays Cooking School. Kinda sad actually. I’m usually really nervous but today went really well. Didn’t really feel that nervous. I could even joke! It didn’t seem like 40 persons today. I thoroughly enjoyed class today.

Lucky me, I had 2 assistants today-Terence & Sarah. Terence was a great, great help-he could anticipate what I needed, very on-the-ball. Thumbs UP!! He showed me his competition pictures & he did a fantastic job! The cakes we did today were very easy so I finished early so I got to teach them extra stuff. I recognised a few of them from my previous classes & am very honoured that they came for my classes again. And the ’students’ weren’t all pulling long faces so that helped. They were inquisitive-I’m very happy. That means they’re listening. And many of them bought The Patissier’s Cookbook. Never happened before! I really, really enjoyed my class today.

Went up to feed Baileys after class just to find the whole place in a mess-AGAIN. Sigh…………..

My feet are aching…my back is breaking…head is aching..can feel the oncoming of a headache and so sleepy & tired….

Food from TCC: DISAPPOINTING. yuck.

Just came back from an MS(mini schnauzer) outing. It was Baileys’s gathering. I was again taggin along. We went to Bliss @ Punggol park. She had a lota fun, had shepherds’ pie for dinner & dog cookies. Pie tasted fine but the cookie was really hard. I tried Chomsky’s honey cookies too but where’s the honey??!! Didn’t eat no mooncake altho’ it was sposed to be a mooncake gathering tho’. They took lotsa pictures. One of all the MSs together on chairs. CUTE!!

I’m glad they all lurve Baileys. I had a fine time. Now I’ve gotta scoot up to bathe her. ZzzzZZZzzzz………and I have class tomorrow… :P…..

It’s the 3rd day today that I’m totally pissed. But today is the last straw. For the 3rd time that I come home after work. The whole floor is covered with shreds of paper towel. ALL OVER. And the stuff that I keep atop the cage is on the floor, chewed on. Scolded, screamed at , smacked & ignored. I thought she would learn from her mistakes. BUT. BUT. BUT. She repeated it again & again & again. Now, especially after a fucked up day at work with a bloody mad woman. How the fuck do I keep calm?? I smacked her a few times but restrained myself. I just left the house. She KNOWS she did domething wrong. Coz she kept quiet throughout. Even when I left the house. I need to calm down & breathe. Otherwise, I’d carry on screaming at her. That’s why I went all the way to Paragon to get a container to put all her stuff. This time, no way she’s gonna do any shredding OR rampant chewing. There.

pissed off…Pissed Off… PISSED OFF!!!!

Caught ‘No Reservations’ this morning. It’s a very nice, heart-warming show, with all facts intact as well. Also the jealousy, rivalry & defensiveness in the kitchen are not too far off from the truth either.

Was able to walk Baileys today & had early dinner at Pawtobello. Nice & quiet, she got chased around by the territorial in-house dog. For the record, she was bigger in size-albeit slightly.

Decided to watch DVDs on the player…and so many can’t be read! I got fed up & slapped the player a bit. Next thing I knew, it was reading the DVD just fine. Violence does help once in a while! So I watched Dreamers-about a racing horse who had a fall in a race. Very touching. Easy show to end the day.

Back to work tomorrow..ugh.

I’ve realised that it’s no use complaining about what someone doesn’t do…because when they do DO something, even if it’s the smallest thing, it’ll mean something special. I should stop griping.

Why do you keep askin me why I’m unhappy when the answer is crystal clear?! After a bloody decade, isn’t it obvious??!! Do I not have the right to feel frustrated at times?! Stop judging me, stop lecturing me & be a little more forgiving & understanding, can’t you? Please? Who can I tell when I’m hurting inside? It’s not something everyone will or can comprehend.

Question: Do I make it difficult for people to be around me?

Just came back from the show "Ratatouille’. It was better than I expected! They’ve got all their facts right, even the ranking of cooks to chefs in the kitchen! Even more impressed was the fact that they modelled the EXACT replica of the grater I bought in Paris!! And…when remy(the rat chef) was still, the rhythm of movement of its stomach when breathing was so real!! This show really blew me away. It’s fantastic, to say the least. Plus it doesn’t have stupid humour & corny jokes to try to engage you.

A movie many times worth the weekend tix price, for sure. Go catch it people!! You won’t regret it!

It was a nice Sunday afternoon. We had a Mini Schnauzers gathering @ Pawtobello. Got to know a few friends & I wasn’t the only one! Baileys made quite a number of pals too! Basically, it was her gathering & I was just tagging along. The dogs were SOOOO cute & obedient & disciplined. Only Baileys was the crazed one…. Hyperactive & unable to keep still. It was so difficult to take a pic of her!! But, one of them managed to take a few nice ones of her with cute commentaries. Tee hee… I let her have dinner @ Pawtobello- Dory chowder with brown rice & a pork-based gravy. Sounds & smells pretty nice. Oh, ordered her a ‘carrotcino’ too..but apparently the dogs don’t fancy it too much. :O