Someone said that the way & rate at which I hug Spunky is totally disturbing but…only I know the reason to that….*wink*

I finally made it to call an old friend last night. It was a much belated catch-up. Sorry bout that. But I’m glad I called, missed talking to you, missed the drinking days. But it was real comforting to chat & seemed like we could pick up from where we last left off. Which is cool! Miss ya Lizzy dear!!

Today, finally found my claypot rice place. They just shifted a few shop spaces down the same street. Used to eat lunch there like over 10 years ago when I was still workin in Telecoms. Still yummy, sambal chilli still as spicy! Thumbs up! The other added point-up: homey, casual & not so rowdy place. Very nice. I definitely wanna go there again. They’re open 7 days a week, 11am - 11pm. SOOO gooood!!!!

Oh, btw, did I mention I went gown shopping with Dordia last Tuesday? Went to Amanda Lee’s shop in Delfi..She looked good in the interesting bubble gown. Suits her body & character. Very nice. Miah(designer, I think :P) was very helpful & friendly, provided great service. I think I’m stuck being a bridesmaid-AGAIN-not that I’m not happy doing it for a buddy(I am & very happy to help too)…just that it’s gonna be my THIRD time & if I don’t EVER get married….hey…you’d BETTER take care of me for the rest of my life, girl!

Just spoke to my supplier today & found out there’s a new chocolate school in Japan & she’s going there next week to recky out the courses & the place!!! So exciting!!! Asked her to help bring back a brochure for me…it’ll be sooo coooool if I could go!!! That’ll give me a good reason to brush up on my ‘nihongo’ too!!!

Ok, wanna go upstairs & hug spunky & Baileys already…

P.S. I’m down to 2 Subbie cookies…and froot loops…think staring at them will be enough…no eat, no eat…

My class just ended & I’m back at the shop, hugging Spunky & being intoxicated by him. AND blogging at the same time. My mind has been pretty preoccupied lately, couldn’t seem to shake it off. Only today, during my class, I had to force myself to focus! So it worked for about 3 hours..the moment the class dismissed, mind went back to work. I seem to have a pretty busy mind!

It’s pouring & boy is this weather aptly coordinated with my mood. Dinner? Nah…I’ve got liquids in the fridge. Works wonders. I can’t seem to focus on the things people are saying to me. I’m not doing it intentionally! I’m me, I feel what I feel & I can’t pretend otherwise. I don’t know how long I can manage to hold up this facade.

Someone said that he’s never really seen me happy, that I should take things in life easy, that it’s all 1 big joke. I say that I HAVE been happy, that I don’t need big things, material things…it’s the small, miniscule things being done -that people tend to overlook- that makes ME happy. THAT is the joke. Sometimes, I think people just don’t know me, different people get to see & know different sides of me..or rather, they see what they WANT to see.

I still have this song playing in my head & I will always remember the memories that come along with it. The exchange of emotions, every touch, every move…and the wish that time would halt.

Friday the 13th July was like a dream…my heart took a nice vacation….even if it didn’t last very long. But I could no longer hold in what I had held in for the longest time. Yes, there were nice tunes playing in the background but it had got nothing to do with it & I couldn’t stop it after it started. It just kept flowing.

When I looked at you, there were so much things that I wanted to tell you so badly but nothing could come out.

Introducing Horsie & Piglet!! Aren’t they adorable??!!! Fit pretty well together, huh?! And they look good together too!! Heh heh heh.. But don’t be mistaken…Piglet may be fat BUT she ain’t out of shape!! It just coz she’s a hand puppet…

Cold Storage is havin a promo on Bacardi Breezer…$3.95 per bottle..SOooooo…….I’ve been stockin up on it. Every simgle time I go grocery shopping, I’d buy 2 bottles. But I haven’t been going crazily regularly lah…to date I’ve only stocked up 7 bottles. ONLY.

Today, Huddath came to visit me at the shop. It was SO good to see her! Still looks so good since the last time I saw her. Keep it up, babe! *wink*

Then ………………….            and            Now………

    What in the world happened to her cute cropped ears???!!!!!

Oh man….somebody tell me where???!!!!! Oh man…..

And the other night, I took a pic of my wardrobe in the dark..here it is….

  Pretty cool huh??

Other than that, I’m just restless. Very, very restless.

P.S. I didn’t think I did that many things though…actually I even felt I didn’t do enough.. :(  But those things that I DID do, I was very, very happy doing them. But time ran out before I could do anymore. However, the neoprints were very lovely & will be very much treasured.

I’ve had a great time with you, tried to prepare myself for it but it kinda feels wierd now. I can’t place the actual feelings..it’s a mix right now but there are definitely a few obvious ones I’m currently going through for now. I’m really trying hard to re-adjust back.

The normal & polite thing I should be saying is ‘Congratulations on your wedding! And I wish you both the best.’ Part of me wants to say it and the other part doesn’t. This may sound hypocritical but I’m conflicting at this point. But I made myself say it today & I really meant it. It’s just difficult to get it out, if you know what I mean. It’s like, I want to say it, but I don’t. I want to do it, but I don’t…sigh…ah…like I said, lucky girl.

I doubt myself for certain things I say. Maybe I’m just trying to make myself believe that or I’m just trying to console or make myself feel better. Think I’m seriously jaded here!! Sometimes I’m oblivious to the things I say or do..not thinking…:P I’ll just drift off….

Yummies-wise, is always available. Just give me a tinkle. I’ll only be too glad to do it.:) It’s my forte & the only thing I’m good at(I’m sure you know!)

Those uplifting good morning texts…calming goodnight ones will be missed amongst amany other stuff. Esp the ‘miraculous’ show-up surprises at the door/downstairs!! Can’t smile enough at that! Even Cloud 9 would be too low a cloud for me to poise on!:P

I was very glad to meet Morgan for dinner today. Was very glad to talk to him. Thanks Morgan!! And to TRY to uplift myself abit…turned to disastrous RETAIL THERAPY!! Uh no…….*shake head*shake head*shake head* Into the shopping thing again now…D.A.R.N. Damn it.

**I’m sorry I fell asleep during Transformers but I enjoyed my company & my ‘head rest’ then though.. It as very cosy & very comfortable. :P Heh. And thank you for waitin with me for my pport.

Good night d**rie…..:)

I realise that this ‘homecoming’ subject is a taboo thingy but it is also, a fact, a reality. So no worries in that department. I will try to deal with it in 1 way or other. I want to be there for you the same way you are for me so taboo or no taboo, talk to me if and whenever you need, ok?

Been a long time since I felt so comfortable with someone’s company. It’s very relaxing and I don’t have to keep my guard up & worry about what I’m gonna have to say next. I don’t have to worry about sounding stupid. The silences in between sentences don’t feel ‘empty’..

*hugs & kisses* for the night…nitey.

The past 6 months seemed to have simply flew past me. It’s been a very, very special half a year for me. Thank you for all the kind compliments dear… Truly appreciate it, appreciate you & all the things you’ve done for me. Thank you for all the pampering. Heeee…I’m glad we’d still be good good friends. I wouldn’t trade your friendship for anything.

Lately, I seem to be able to hear the time ticking away, makes me feel a little frantic sometimes. Coupled with this darn migraine, funny why I ain’t walkin on the wall yet. And funny, I’m always so eager to see if you’ve updated your blog. It’s like another alternative channel of communication.. Always interesting to read..

Now there’re 2 ‘new’ scents I’m sensitive to…davidoff coolwater & the smell of your car..everytime I hop in, there’s this familiar smell before the davidoff hits me..:)

So many things I’m gonna miss…