There are a 2 things to smile for today…firstly, Baileys gave me a nice nice surprise during her training today. She responded to her commands immediately & it’s amazing because the first 2 practices with her last week made me hit the roof! It’s really a test of my patience too…*breathe* Plus, I didn’t practice with her the last 2 days..so you can imagine how delighted I was today!! She learned some new stuff today & excelled in it!! WOW!! If I had been drinking before the class, I would’ve thought I was drunk!!

Baileys went crazy when she saw you.. I can imagine just how much she missed you.

The other reason why I can smile today….I’m not telling. And it’s NOT due to the 5 breezers I just had.

Thank you so much for the ‘message’ Morgan…it’s really beautiful… I’m sorry you have to take this even though you’re not feeling too good yourself. That doesn’t give you the reason NOT to talk to me if you need, ok??!!

Stupid because the slash on my hand sealed up & I tore it open accidentally again today. What did I do?? Ha, same way I got the slash. S-T-U-P-I-D. In every sense of the word.

Everyday I think of the ‘good morning dear’ message with the smiley. Has such a nice ring to it, dontcha think?? Some things don’t change, won’t change & shouldn’t change…

Nobody is to blame and there shouldn’t be any regrets either. No need for pardon nor forgiveness dear. Don’t know how to put in words just how much you mean to me. People who don’t know the facts have NO right to judge or to label-anyone.

I miss the ‘ordered-in’ salty sea breeze with the sound of waves crashing on the shore, the stars, the company. Memories that I will hold so dear to me.

I’m sure Bailey’s misses you. No limited visiting hours.

I’m thinking of flying down to Miami. Dreaming of getting my back ‘designed’…

Space-staring day tomorrow. How exciting.

p.s….I can open the breezer bottle with my teeth too. No. 5 now & teeth still there..here i mean. Or is it there??  I miss…….

Super clumsy today!! Jabbed my head on the damn metal rod while fixing on the stupid mixing bowl…(wasn’t concentrating) Then dropped the roll of foil-not that it was a big issue- just that I tried to catch it and the metal cutter slipped through my palm and TA-DA!!! A nice slash. Ingenious, huh?

Oh…I found my nose stud(lost it on the sofa..) It appeared mysteriously on my bed-and in plain sight!! No way I could have missed it before. *scratch head*  Anyhow, went out for C-break today & guess what happened?? I was rubbing my nose & the damn stud fell into the drain. Bummer. Sigh…

Was getting out of Sis’s car and I bumped my head. Again.

Ow. Ow. Ow.Think that’s about the only word I can say now. ow.

The moon is still full & voluptiously round…still clear skies..wishing I were somewhere else..

I wonder what others feel sometimes. It’s not all just about me. What DO you feel? It’s not just about what I feel. I would like to be true to what I feel but how CAN I do it?

Funny how I find myself staring at my phone while workin’, having the phone by my side wherever I am in the kitchen, or out the back with F for a C-break—only to remember that it ain’t gonna sound… then I type my text, and ends up deleted.

Don’t regret, happiness was a big part of it all…I’m very grateful for it & I treasure it SO much because I know that nobody will ever do anything like that for me, not in that way that you’ve done. I only regret not doing the things I wanted and meant to do when I had the chance to. I still owe you ice cream.

Seems like waiting is a huge part of my life. Waiting for this, for that..things that are important to me but of course, I get more than my fair share of disappointments I feel..Should I have already gotten used to it by now? Why am I so lousy at fighting for the things I want?

Loser….with a capital ‘L’

P.S. Does it really take THAT much courage to  love me? Or am I such a scary person to love? OR am I not worth the risk?

Highlights: Baileys is amazing, growing, getting naughtier. and I just introduced carrots to her meals.