Poor Joey got a bad cut on her finger from the metal shelving in the grand fridge so…I applied a lavender antiseptic on & wrapped a plaster around it. Later on, boss offered us a slice of her eggless brownie(new recipe) & after eating it, Joey said there was a funny taste. Boss thought it was the applesauce in it…found out a few seconds later that Joey actually had a taste of the lavender antiseptic cream on her finger. Hahahahaha!!!!!! It was so funny I couldn’t stop laughing…Bwahahahahaha!!!! Silly Joey…. Bwahahahahaha!!

The other thing thats bugging me now… is I constantly get wierd & bad dreams at night…makes me feel even more tired the next day. I can’t seem to be able to rest well at all. Makes me feel groggy when I work sometimes, esp in the mornings. Poo.

I finally made it to Oosh for dinner! Thank you!!! The ambience was amazing-although it reminded me of the zoo-but then again, I love going to the zoo. ….The calamari was ok….but the herb crusted pacific dory was perfect. The portion was also just about right. I felt they had a nice selection of drinks-even had my Frangelico! Amazing! I love that drink. Can never seem to find it though. The last time I had my fill of it was at Post Bar @ Fullerton where I just got to know Joe & he always made sure my glass ain’t empty. Hmmmm…Wonder when I’ll have the chance of experiencing that again! The other drink I love is the lychee liqueur…yummy! *slurrrpp!!* Anyways, I could’ve sat there drinking the alcohol & taking in the lovely ambience the whole night. Can’t seem to get enough of it.  I had wonderful company, needless to say. It was a great night, fo’ever treasured, most definitely. So so so soooooo…… appreciate it, thank you for takin me out for dinner, and sorry you had to spend-again. Definitely made me smile non-stop like a grinning idiot.

Need to take new pics of Baileys, especially after her ‘haircut’….hee hee she looks so ‘botak’! But then again, that’s the schnauzer cut. But funny thing is, her ears aren’t cropped anymore….I wonder why…coz they used to be. now her ears look so big for her head! I HAVE to take her to the neoprint machine again…coz I suck at taking pics! Ugh. Disgraceful to say the least!

She had a mini fall & yelped so loudly my heart dropped. I was stunned for more than a moment. I was like ‘uh oh….shit.’ I was so scared, so many horrible thoughts ran through my head then. And the feeling of dread I felt when Sugar passed came a-knocking. At that point of time I truly felt just how crucial & significant her role is in my life & I can’t do without her anymore(even when I’ve just spent about 2 months with her). I mean, I knew that she was important all along but her existence is now one that I CANNOT do without. I have to give her the best of everything I can even if it means compromising on myself. Doc said she probably hit herself but nothing serious, she prolly got a bad shock.

Her class yesterday was fun…she did a good job. I’m so proud of her. It was an outdoor session & overall she behaved well. Learnt something new-to get her to come to me from afar. Started practicing with the leash on & later on, off leash!!! Woah….scary man! I was SO afraid she’d run off. But when I saw her running towards me when I called her, it felt so good… I LOVE BAILEYS!!! In EVERY sense of THE word! Heh.

Wish I could be there at The Pump Room with you but was way too groggy & although I would’ve loved to see you last night, you already had an appointment with your friends so …didn’t think it was very nice if you came to see me first(would’ve felt bad again)…Slept for about 4 hours or so…Been having dizzy attacks lately, don’t know why. It’s more irritatin then uncomfortable sometimes. Had to wake up early due to the huge amount of meringue orders this morning so…got a bright & cheery wake up message…and went down to work to a very , very nice(& much appreciated!!) surprise!! Can’t believe you were waiting downstairs for so long!! Crazy…I feel so bad…BUT nevertheless, very, very touched & very, very happy. So sweet…Can’t find the words to 1. express exactly how happy I was this morning & 2. thank you for the superb surprise. It’s definitely helped to kick the day off with a good start. And morning hugs are always good for you. THANK YOU!!!! Hope you have a good rest today.

Baileys has been very naughty lately. Doesn’t listen to instructions & everything gone haywire. Bleargh! But today sent her for a full grooming with the ’schnauzer’ cut! Should bring her for a neoprint session again. But not today(Not until dinner anyway..), gotta go Taka to collect some stuff & dinner with Joe, Dad & wife, and gramps.

:)

Goodness…I’m turning into a couch potato-or pig rather….been goin on a DVD binge..:P Feel like Subway….Haven’t had a nice sandwich or a nice meal in a long time…Hmmm…….Best sandwich I’ve had so far, some dinky sandwich from 7-11. Pathetic. But I’m too lazy to venture out of my area.

Yippee!!!! Off day tomorrow!  Happy, happy happy! Joy Joy Joy!!! Woo Hoo!!! But I’m not going anywhere though. Good thing I’m off, jus so the blister on my poor middle finger can heal. It’s swoolen & hot!!! Ow… Nope, I haven’t been givin my middle finger to anyone-I just got burnt by sugar. Again. Ow ow ow owowow….!!!!

***Nope, don’t disappear. That entry didn’t have anything to do with you. It was something else so don’t worry..Thanks for being so concerned about me. I appreciate it. And likewise, please, please talk to me if something’s bugging you, even if it’s the smallest thing. You can talk to me about anything & everything under the moon & the stars.

Good grief!! Fathers’ Day is finally over!!! Woo hoo!!! Now that I’m more or less done with being busy baking, I’m now busy blowing my nose. :X And the sniffings giving me endless headaches. Bummer.

Lately, I’ve been stocking up on DVDs, borrowing movies & curling up on the sofa, watching the picture box, snacking & drinking. Haven’t done it in ages. Just back from dinner with Dad-teochew porridge @ river valley! Not too bad but 1 of the ladies was a BITCH. Appetite killer. Dad lashed out at her a lil’. Ha, it’s no guess where I got my lousy temper from, huh?! I just borrowed a stack of movies from him.. hee, guess I’ll be spending time with the sofa! Anyone wanna join me?

It’s bad..I feel stupid, redundant & I’m an outcast. Nothing’s going right & it only gets worse. Doesn’t matter if I’m sick, doesn’t matter if I feel like shit, doesn’t matter if my chest feels heavy & I need to make an effort just to breathe. I deserve it.

Do you think maybe, married people don’t need & don’t treasure friends so much? That 1 single mistake you make, automatically strikes you off the list. That the difference in treatments after that are crystal clear.

I think I’m beginning to turn in again. I like being alone sometimes. More like I have to get used to being alone because no one’s gonna bother. Always have to depend on yourself. I keep reminding myself.

Ever felt the blade against your skin? It’s nice, it’s sharp. It makes me smile. Think about all the ‘what if’s.. It’s SO true that people always take things for granted until it gone. Then in comes the regret. What’s the use? 

Honestly, I was thinking about ButterFactory the whole night. Kept me awake quite a lil’. Thinkin bout what you might be slurping down, worried bout you driving after drinks! Scary…I remembered the 1 time I woke up-about 4am I think- lookin’ at my mobile thinkin: uh oh…not home yet…? Then…the sun came up at about 5am. Relief. Dinner is always, always good.

That ‘difficult time’ had to come-sooner or later-right? Well, it forced me to face certain things which I had denied before. Made me think really, really hard about alota issues, trying hard to clear my head a lil’.'THAT’ is a four letter word, but right now, it’s a mouthful.

I’m sorry you had to eat so late. How could I be bugged?! I felt SO bad you were waiting for me just to send me to my destination which is 5 to 10 min away. Sounds ridiculous hor? Sorry. But it was very, very thoughtful & sweet of you. Thank you, thank you! Hmm…..did I have the word ‘hesitation’ written on my face?! Haha!

Btw, was sposed to show you pics of Baileys sleeping on me-forgot..:P Sorry again!

I’ve been thinking alot today. Realised that somethings, I have to accept(good or bad), somethings I have to be darn patient(will try) & somethings, I just don’t know what to do about. But, the thinking has made me feel slightly worse. Feels like I’ve been evicted to the lonely planet. And I’m the only occupant there. It’s a great time for drinks, most definitely.

What I also DO know is that all that I’m upset & stressed about are finally manifesting themselves up as physical problems. 2 days ago, my stomach’s been feeling queasy..I feel nauseous. As of this morning, slightly feverishy..now…think I have a slight fever.

Maybe I’m being too hard on myself…..maybe….maybe I’m just a stubborn bitch.

TGIF tomorrow! And I’m on half day leave. Need to do some errand running. We’re gettin’ Corrinne May’s concert tickets tomorrow! Yippee!!!

‘Macaron’ is opening tomorrow & I had the opportunity to take a ‘look-see’ inside & at the menu last night. Courtesy of Chef Pang. Losta interesting stuff! Gotta try it out soon. But have to make reservations & only open for dinner. Wish you could go.

We had a short chat outside while I was waitin for Morgan. Was askin why I wasn’t movin on to other places…sigh. Dunno how to answer that question. Funny the conversation was sorta about how I should follow my heart and do what I wanna do. Well, I think to do that, sacrifices will definitely come into play. Consequences may not be easy to take but if you think it’s worth a shot, why not? Esp when it concerns your happiness. Nobody said good things come easy, right?? I’d have a lot to say about that but it’ll be so long & boring.

I’m so stupid, knocked my head again today. Ouchie. A few cuts here and there, the tip of my index finger split!! Dunno how the hell it happened. Bleargh!

Another sleepless night last night. Woke up at every hour, only got to sleep through from about 4am-which means I only slept an hour. There was this whole bunch of malay youngsters making helluva din downstair, cursing & swearing in hokkien. Probably even fought. I couldn’t care less but they were disturbing my sleep! The other ‘fella’ causing my loss of sleep was my dear Baileys. Barkin the whole night.. Didn’t let her out at night coz she was naughty so I guess she got angry.

Did some pretty surprising things lately. You’d all NEVER guess. I went to church. Ha. Nope, I’m not kidding.. Haven’t been into 1 in over 10 years. I was at a loss once I stepped in! But it was really so nice & quiet. Esp when you ‘re the only 1 there. There’s 1 round the corner so I figured, I’d take a walk, & a mind trip.

Today started out just fine coz it seemed like my mobile came alive again Seemed like the sun came out for a while.

Kitchen had been rearranged so I needed some time to re-adjust. It was kinda unnatural for a while. The work flow is not really there yet. Our new deck oven came in today. Exciting!

An overall plus day today… Reasons are a secret!! Shhhhh…..!!!!!