It’s cloudy, rainy & gloomy…what a way to start the day. Weather is definitely in sync with how I’m feeling today. Only consolation, work ain’t too heavy & I’m at starbucks taking a breather. It’s a quiet day & thank god for that.

Had the company of my iPod at work this morning, blasted Sarah Maclachlan at 515am all the way till I walked outta the shop. Many songs spoke for me, almost seemed like they’re talking to me too…

One of em’ – I Will Remember You(Sarah Maclachlan)

—–excerpts from the song

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so tired but i can’t sleep
Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard

I’m so afraid to love you, but more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

Is it really possible to love 2 persons at the same time? Love in the romantic sense but yet a totally different kinda love??? I used to be leaning more towards the ‘nah…probably not…’ side but now…thinking about it, maybe it IS possible.

‘Our lives are intertwined but not joined’…yup, you may be right. Sounds almost tragic. I thought I kept my feelings well at bay. Thought I shielded myself enough but why am I still sad & why is it affecting me??!!! Honestly, it’s affecting me more than I thought it would.

Things were settled by the wake of dawn, but I still found my words stuck in the silence, hanging in the air, unable to be vocalized. Maybe some things are better left unsaid.

I’m so grateful for the past 5 months(sounds like I have some terminal illness & awaiting death!!) But a mere ‘Thank You’ here doesn’t seem to do any justice at all. I’m so grateful for your kind words, your generosity & your efforts. Your smile really brightens my day & your messages keep me going through work. Thanks for letting me have so many things to look forward to during this time.

Again, thank you so much B. (From the very rock bottom of my heart) *hugs hugs*

Well, friends will always BE friends so…. J And you know where to find me(and Baileys!!). J

For all of you who don’t know what the hell I’m talking about, I’m just trying my hand at a short story.

Sigh….how time slips through our fingers……