It’s not even Christmas yet & I’m close to burning out…Still at work now, barely finished. Just waiting for the damn fruit uncle to come. I’m gonna give him a piece of my mind when I see him man. Came in to work today & LO & BEHOLD!!! The freezers are SOOOO empty. Like big huge holes. So…had to go into serious production war today. Plus, had to finish up what somebody couldn’t finish because of another appointment. Slightly put off. But…I don’t know.

My fingers feel stiff, both my wrists hurts like hell & my eyes are burning. I’m tired…really tired.

So hungry I took a piece of chocolate fudge & Ah Bun bought me strawberry ice cream. So that’s dinner for me tonight.

Tomorrow morning I’m really gonna give the damn uncle a good butterin’ up.

Sis:: ALOHA & Welcome home!! Cya soon.

It’s almost 2am & guess what?? I just finished work. Super long story, too much whining, cursing, swearing & complaining-did that twice today to 2 different people already so I shan’t do it here again. Migraine is saying ‘Hi’ & prodding me in all different areas of my head right now. *OOOoooouchie** And WHY, oh WHY do I have a migraine?? Guess whose fault??

To the 1st person who was willing to hear me out: Thank you, thank you, thank you. And many more thanks for cheering me up & out. From the *heart of my bottom*(ooops!! :P) I am grateful & appreciate it IMMENSELY, yo!! You can be sure I will do the same for you too, as usual, always will.

Next, thanks Alvin for visiting, listening to me whine incessantly & for keeping me company through work tonight. THANK YOU!!

All else, I hope my dear sista & 2 other BABES are havin a fine & dandy time over there in Phuket! Hmmm….Just when I’m about to log off…my song comes on the radio..guess I’ll have to hang around for just a wee bit longer. Heh….

Work sucks right now. Big time. Frustrated. But…..hangin on(or trying to, at least). I’m hungry…….I’m gonna go up & make meself a ham sandwichie!! Yums!

Blasted old man took advantage of me on the bus today!!! Bloody slimy old asshole!!! He didn’t want to let me get off the bus even..so I glared at him, shoved his stupid legs aside pushed my way through & said ‘FUCK YOU!’ & stormed off the bus. Hee…he was still staring at me when I got off so gave him the privilege of seeing my middle finger. I know it was really bad of me to do & say stuff like taht but I’m so tired & grouchy & he prevented me from napping on the bus ride back to M.S. so….he should be grateful I didn’t slap him! Disgusting ass!

Congratulations to my bossie & Patrick on the birth of their baby girl!!! She’s SO cute, gorgeous & so dainty. Bossie looked great, she was glowing with pride!! Hope she recovers well & quickly. I sure miss her at work!!

So glad that Frances is at work though. Can’t imagine not having her around. I had the pleasure of a short chill out session at The Chocolate Factory after work today. We shared a chocolate tart - not too bad. the ganache was smooth! Very generous with the royaltine!! Hee!!! BUT, downpoint…service was SLOW & VERY BAD. Inefficient, can’t be bothered & don’t know what’s in their cakes!!! Menu sucks-visually mainly. Hmmmm…… Definitely no ‘pull factor’ to go there again. Always enjoy my conversations with Frances.

Major work out at the gym last nite. Today….OUCH!!!!!!!!! WHOLE BODY-OUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!! But…..I’m going to be there again tomorrow morning!!! Have to!!! Cardio session…hmmmm…….pain……..

Corrinne May is coming for a concert mid-Dec @ the Esplanade…I WANNA GO!!!! I’ve missed so many of her sessions already…don’t wannt miss this one….her voice is angelic…also, her new album is coming out end Oct!!! Hear one of her new songs-Answer…Absolutely enchanting.

It’s so sad that when you need to talk to someone, no one’s there. Maybe I’m not independent enough. OR maybe I need a counsellor. *shrugs*

**Many thanks to Huddath babe….simply for her bubbly messages & for reading my boring, full of complaints PLUS whiny blog. Ha. She must be havin a WHALE of a time in NY, eh?!

**Morgaga…thanks for feeding baby & taking care of her even when you’re so DAMN busy!! Hope work gets better for you soon!

**Alvina!!! Still waitin to see your blog & congrats on getting your 2 ’sons’-Boo & Kumon. They’re cute!!

**Sis…enjoy your holiday & be careful.

**And to all others who read this entry…hope you guys are doing well.

Just a lil’ something I thought of while I was workin and not in a particularly ‘lifty’ mood.

How do you learn to be strong?                                                                                                                       Why do you keep reaching up, when all you end up doing is fall?                                                                      When all you see is darkness, failure & disappointments?

Why do you try to be strong,                                                                                                                         When the end may just be another failure?

Why do you keep searching for the light?                                                                                                       When the darkness that enfolds you is so alluring?

Why do you try to satisfy your hunger,                                                                                                          When your soul is full with the taste of tears?

Why do you try to appear happy?                                                                                                                   When all you want to do is scream in the darkness?

Why bother screaming,                                                                                                                                  When all you get are cold blank stares that chill you empty soul?

When, regardless of the volume, no one can hear you?                                                                                    Maybe it’s time to succumb, to stop the pain

-rough version…not in the mood to change & correct it, yet.