This is the 3rd F**KING time I’m typing this. Sick of this shit man. I feel so shitty today-to say the least. I’m angry, frustrated, irritated, pissed off. I’m 1 helluva angry girl right now. My head is spinning from all the alcohol I’ve been intoxicating myself with & from the things going on in my head. Sometimes I wonder why I let them(I mean people) get to me so much. I’m such a biatch for thinking what I think & I question myself in my own head but to no conclusion.

I mean, do I seriously OWE these people THAT much? Honestly…….DO I??!!! Why the HELL should I bother??!! Should I even put in so much of MY time? What’s the point?! What do I get? Talk about ungratefulness, why don’t you turn around, look at yourself in the mirror & ask yourself before questioning anybody else? YOU don’t have the bloody right to judge me. Nobody does. Nobody has the right to judge anyone at all!

And ain’t it nice to have a 9 to 5 job? Where you work FIXED hours, get PAID for doing OT & HAVE A F**KING LIFE?! I’d appreciate that, for sure.

And I spent the last 1 and a half hours on the phone trying to juggle & re-organise & settle my flights.

Oh yeah, sure I’m enjoying myself here. I’m probably just trying to kid myself. Who the hell cares anyway?