Talk about being in heaven - and hell at the same time. AB is on 1 month leave. That in itself is heaven. Doesn’t matter how much work I have to do. Practices, rehearsals, dinners…= HELL. Through the past 1 month+, and after gone through & experienced a few incidents, I’ve found someone I detest just as much as AB! Amazing, isn’t it? To find someone so similar. They’re both ASSHOLES. JERKS.  Competition’s coming soon, but not soon enough. I hate that feeling. It’s like hanging in limbo. I Hate it! Dread practices, dread seeing them. Makes me sick. If only I could do the ’snap my fingers & april’s over’ trick. IF ONLY. This whole damn thing leaves me with hardly any positivity, only feelings of the opposite! My priority right now is really not the competition. It’s being able to cover as much work as possible so my poor boss doesn’t have to work so hard. Especially right now. Hmmmm….

I’m supposed to be feeling excited about my HK trip. But. The competition’s taking up too much of me to be feeling anything else but misery. In my free time now, if any, all I think about is sleep. Not to mention I’ve been eating & eating the whole day right from morning till evening. Non stop. Bloody glutton. But I can’t seem to stop…

DAMN THE COMPETITION!!!!!

I miss my life or my non-existent life! Now it’s..I don’t know. What’s worse than non-existent? Morgaga, give me a hand here?!

Okie…gotta scoot back to the shop now…tata for now..