Feeling sucky. Irritated. Restless. Useless. UN-appreciated. UNimportant. Non-existent.

What are friends for? Any reason to make new friends when ultimately, all they do is leave & walk away? I understand that everyone has their own lives to lead & it’s only natural. So…then what’s the point? Maybe I should learn & get used to doing things on my own & going out alone from now..since nobody’s gonna bother about me or what I do anyway. Bummer…

Smiles…just an act of pure pretence? Or sincerity? Oh, spare me the hypocrisy. AND…the small talk. You & I know that we don’t like each other, have nothing to talk about ’since then & because of that’ , don’t see eye to eye etc so why bother trying?? Don’t you feel tired & awkward? Well, I feel stupid. So leave it, won’t you?

So tired & fed up.