Saturday 18th Feb–

Never before have I had an interview like that…but I wasn’t as freaked out as my competition day. Pretty tough, I’d say. The first candidate went in & came out within like 10 or 15 minutes..I was the 3rd victim on the hit list..I went in & survived the ticking of time… My interview seemed to last forever & the judges(there were 3 of them) seemed to have endless questions!

Questionzzzz…..Where do you see yourself in 5 years? If given an opportunity to work in an hotel, would you? What do you think it’s like working in a hotel, challenging? Pressurizing? Tough? If you could travel to other countries for a peek into their pastry scene, which country or countries would you visit & why? Where do you think has the best chocolate cake? What’s your bestseller & why? Which direction do you think the local pastry scene is heading: eg. asian, western etc? Locally, there is a high media coverage on the culinary scene but quiet on the pastry side. How would you improve this? Do you think Singaporeans are picky/fussy? Do they know what they want? How many years before you would want to set up your own place/shop?

No time to think…Don’t even know what came out of my mouth! Yikes…I think I blew it.. Frances…I f**ked it up…:P I did!! This is bad for the survival of brain cells! Geez…

Sunday 19th Feb–

Not too long a work day today..but we had an easier time breathing. The morning was ok..noon onwards, things got gloomier - for me. I found it difficult to concentrate, feeling the weight of the stress. Felt as if my hair-each strand-weighed tons, dragging me down under.

               ~ this is the time, you either make it or break it~

Of course I want to make it, of course I want to be able to make it. But it feels otherwise. I certainly don’t feel like I have the ability or capability to make it. I know I have the wrong mindset. Haven’t even started & I already think of failing.  I’m so pathetic, I don’t even think I have the guts to even try to make it right now.

Nowadays..I think people don’t care much about other people’s feelings. Doesn’t matter who the other person is-regardless of rank, position, relations, family etc Just because you’re in a bad mood doesn’t give you the right to blah it out at anybody. More especially if you’re close! Come on ass-man, learn to respect others! Don’t tell me about the word R.E.S.P.E.C.T. if you don’t know the meaning! ESPECIALLY your SUPERIORS, damn it! There’s only so much a person can take. Absolute shit hole. What am I? A rag doll? A toy to all you people?

FYI - the meaning of RESPECT:   a) to feel or show honor or esteem for; hold in high regard, b) to consider or treat with deference or dutiful regard

FYI again - the meaning of ASSHOLE: a) A thoroughly contemptible, detestable person, b) insulting terms of address for people who are stupid or irritating or ridiculous

There! A free english lesson!

Anyways…the afternoon was a pleasant one. Frances(<–the EXPERT!!), Boss, Patrick & I went rollerblading at their void deck! Cool! Now that they have learnt how to blade, we’re going on a regular basis at east coast!!! Woo Hooooo!!!!!