Been a long time since my last post. Too busy..reason or excuse? Take it whichever way you want. I really can’t be bothered. Anyway, I’m relieved most BIGGIE things are over eg. Bossie’s wedding, her absence while on honeymoon, Christmas…etc. However….STILL busy. I’m getting sick of this 4-letter(albeit HUGE) word. Such a small word but takin up such a magnificently HUGE fraction of my life. I can’t think of another word to replace it, just like I never could find or didn’t have to find another activity to replace work. There wasn’t a need to. Work was so fulfilling. Notice ‘was’. Ever since the many small & big incidents happening & jumping up at work, I feel so…..empty? Plainly….just sick of work. I know that it’s a very bad attitude to have & I’d better snap outta it quick otherwise I’m just gonna be stuck. There’s no point. Relationships take 2 hands to clap but a business takes a team & willingness to work together, to put in the hardwork, time & effort to work. It’s definitely NOT a 1 man’s show. I need a break. I’m tired. Physically & mentally. Need a long break.  I need time to do things for myself- routine or entertainment. Everything. There are pros & cons to having the bumps at work. Certain people get closer, both work-wise & personally(which I’m very happy about!) but, unfortunately, some people drift apart & some just stay the same.

Family’s grumbling about the same old stuff about me again…work-wise. Something I can’t do anything about…just have to let ‘nature’ take its course. Recent new discoveries about my family(part)….I seem to have been looking at the picture the rosy way all this time but have finally seen the ugly side of it. Sad, really. What is becoming of the people I love? Or is it, me? again??

My pleasure to have finally met Joe, my aunt’s bf. A humourous person I must admit & who sure knows how to enjoy life! As everyone should be…if only we had the dough to…!!!! I’ve been eating non-stop since christmas eve..God I feel so fat! But Joe gave me a chance to drink at Post Bar, Fullerton hotel, then seafood at 1 Fullerton…followed by yummilicious dessert & company(Italian??) of the bosses of Senso at Senso restaurant at Club street. OH!!!! And the dessert wine…..with the desserts…eat & drink anymore, you could get an orgasm!!! Sorry for the explicit content, peeps!! HEY, before any of you think anything else, the cakes at The Patissier are STILL FANTABULOUS! Get my point?? So….THANK YOU JOE for the wonderful enjoyable night & thanks Aunt Jesse for buying me that nice pink club-able top you bought me a-la-minute!

Over with that….Been in low/black moods so much so that I’ve turned to shop-o-therapy & reading. Reading! Can you believe it??!! Must be my reading season returning. Paulo Coelho is good…..can get a wee bit slow at times but good nevertheless. Most stuff based on true events & feelings… Giving me some new insight in some things. As if everything isn’t bad enough…my mobile decided to ‘poop’ on me that day & mood got even blacker! So…walked into the Apple Centre & got meself an iPod docker & speakers!!!! $249 only….lifted my moods a lil’….haven’t spent that much on myself for the longest time! I feel so proud! Bleargh…hahaha. My Mum reads this, or notices my new toy & I’m dead. D-E-A-D. Oh well… it’s cheaper than going to a psychiatrist, right??? So I’m saving moneeey!!

‘What the eyes don’t see, the heart don’t grieve over’

Truth? Or Nay?

‘The further off they are, the closer to the heart are all those feelings that we try to repress & forget. If we’re far from the person we love, everyone we pass in the street reminds us of them.’ - Paulo Coelho, Eleven Minutes.

If there are some feelings(not sure what) about someone should it be verbally said & made known? Or just let it pass to prevent any awkward situations????

Honestly, human relations can get so complicated. So much complexity involved. Humans are really wierd & troublesome!!! Bummer…

Ok, I’m hungry & tired of blogging. Till the next one..

P.S. Thank you Frances, Boss, Patrick & Sis. Love you all. I hope 2006 will be a much better year for all of us.