Boss’s wedding is coming up…very, VERY, VERY soon. And I feel stressed. Favour tags aren’t out & finalised & I’m really rushing my dear Gin for it…feel so bad to rush her like that though. There are so much left to be done. Frances, Boss & I just had a mini meeting, trying to finalise & settle the dessert part of the dinner. Everyone took minutes. Had to. Someone was having an attitude-ful day so it was just the 3 of us.

Boss & I went for the 18th Singapore International Dance Competition. NOT as contenders but audience. The costumes were dazzling, most of ‘em had killer bods! (jealous). Aw….wish I could dance like them…(dream on!!) Everything was fine & dandy(food & dance) till she got a STUPID, USELESS, NO-POINT message. Problems with the dessert menu. That someone didn’t say anything when we(i stress - 3 of us) were having the meeting! I feel that he doesn’t have any, ANY right to say anything now. Not as if he’s gonna be doing production. ARGH! He can jolly well not help. We’ll manage. He really pissed my boss off. And I’m pissed. We already put in the effort to come up with new desserts & tried out & fine-tuned the recipes & now he thinks we should CUT DOWN??!!!! CUT DOWN??!!!  WTF??!!!

I’m pissed off because, because - there are SO many reasons- he’s so conceited, arrogant, has an attitude problem, everything has to be about him, everyone has to do things his way etc etc.. what kind of a guy/person is he/that?? It’s as if the world just revolves around him. 1 single person.

A few weeks ago, I set a goal to be happy at work. No bad mood, no tantrums, no grouchiness etc. And I’ve done it so far. Until today. The more I think about it, the madder I get. I don’t want him to piss her off & risk having me get the brunt of it. I’m not saying anything, just stating that I don’t want to be in the middle of a shoot-out. Wierd thing is, I’m actually angry because he pissed her off & she’s ureshikunai. Don’t want her to be ureshikunai.

Anyway, seems like I never stay angry for very long. I was ok before I finished work! Amazing! Conclusion: The dessert buffet is STILL on! Ha!

Holiday tomorrow! Wooo Hooo!!!!

Sometimes I just wanna be alone. I really mean ALONE. No calls, no messages, no meet ups. Nothing. People just don’t get it. I get mass messages askin if I’m ok, that I should talk to someone about my sorrow & distress. But WHO said anything about me being unhappy in the first place? Do I have to be unhappy to want to be alone? I don’t need company ALL the time. Maybe it’s just me but I can’t stand clingy, ‘needy’ people who call & call & call, message & message & message continuously. Irritates the shit outta me sometimes.

Finished work a little later today. Many BIG orders coming up… It’s so unfair how the working world works… Some people get a paycheck they deserve, some don’t get what they should be gettin & some get a paycheck they DON’T deserve. Life is so unfair. But I’m just griping. Guess I should be content with what I have right now.

As if work isn’t good enough a reason to look forward to, I always love the time when Frances & I go up to shower, occasionally we’d talk- about our families, about work, relationships etc. I really enjoy the talks we have. Especially when she usually is able to see the other side of the box. A total different angle/perspective. Make me think & ponder. Also coz of my work schedule, it makes it a little more difficult to talk to anyone so I’m glad she’s there. I’m glad Boss & Frances are there. I feel like I’m so much closer to them sometimes(or most times)!! I feel I’m able to tell them anything. Of course I have my dear, dear sister too but she’s very tired too so try not to bother her too much.

Was crossing the road in front of UE Square today - a busy road as per normal. The cars’ headlights were so dazzling & blinding, should’ve been afraid that they’d come too fast & I should be walking faster to get across but something seemed to be drawing me to the lights. Didn’t want to move. I stood there, just plain looking at the lights, unable to move until they honked at me. That’s when I got outta the ‘frozen’ state & crossed over. Wierd…

Question: Fame, wealth, recognition etc etc more important? Or small satisfaction, freedom, flexibility & happiness?  Well, not that fame & all won’t make you happy but…you get what I mean. Dilema… be content with what small things you have, keep your promises or take the risk, be an ungrateful betrayer & fly?

Got a very shocking surprise early in the morning. I now know what people mean when they say it’s all in the kiss. A single kiss can tell you many things. It can tell you just how much you love someone or vice versa. Feels so good to kiss someone you love - it makes you go all soft & you are able to feel the passion. It’s like a fireball being ignited that warms you up & you simply melt into the arm of your other half…

Feels like: oh ma…don’t stop!!!

But yet it’s so sad when someone kisses you by surprise(without consent, mind you!) & you don’t feel anything(sure, you might feel angry due to disrespect to a certain degree…but sometimes these things are done on impromptu) - no anger, no passion, no feelings…no nothing. It tells you a whole lot, doesn’t it? Just empty. Don’t feel nothin’ at all.

Feels like: doesn’t matter how long it goes on for-I don’t care-..but if emotionless from the kiss then, what’s the point??

2nd day of photo shoot at the shop today…my turn to stay till they finish. They ended about 7+pm..tired, although didn’t do much today. But was so clumsy the whole day, kept knocking my hands, elbows, knees etc etc…gonna be covered in bruises! OUCH! Other than that, I left 7 trays of my Lollipop cookies in the oven & totally forgot about it. When I remembered, it was already too late. Burnt… SO angry with myself! But I had boss & Frances to console me thought..hee hee… But still irritated with me. STUPID!

Someone kept bugging me to get a later version of messenger & after I downloaded it, I can’t sign in! And he can’t solve the problem! FED UP!!! I’m not gonna listen to ‘un-trustworthy’ people anymore!

Goodness..so much has happened. Too lazy to blog about what has happened…so lazy to blog…but there’s this one thing I have to blog about. BEYOND!!! Jesline, Sis, Jiefu & I went for the concert on the 15th Oct! They played songs from way before till the present. Brought back so much memories…There were intervals showing their individual solo albums, short clips of their concerts in Hong Kong & shots of Ka Kui & things he said back then.  Throughout the whole concert, noticed quite a few ladies getting teary-eyed. I’m sure we all miss Ka Kui tremendously. I don’t know about the others but I never got to see Ka Kui in person & that is one huge regret.  And you can still see a glimpse of sadness in their eyes…

However, they still looked so good regardless of their age!!! And Ah Paul still looked SOOO sexy!!! The way he moved & sang with his guitar…WOOO HOOO!!! *droooool*…. His last outfit was a magenta jacket!

But…I felt they weren’t so happy when the concert started…only little smiles here & there during the last half… Ka Keung smiled quite a bit towards the end. Looked so sweet & so boyish. The same kinda face you see on a little boy when you give him a sweet. Innocence.

Ah Wing’s voice improved a fair bit. At certain points, he actually sounded like Ka Kui…so nostalgic…

The concert only lasted for 2 hours. And NO encore. So disappointing…. They made a pretty quick exit & was as if they were rushing off & didn’t want to stay.  Things were being unplugged fairly quickly too. So…that was it. The one thing I’m pissed about is we weren’t allowed to stand up on chairs. Why don’t people just get it??!!!

    IT’S A DARN ROCK CONCERT! NOT JAZZ, NOT CLASSICAL!! DAMN IT!!

People just never seem to get it. Not a few years ago, not now. Prolly never. Stick-in-the-muds…

We went for supper at Fong Seng & home thereafter. I’m so, so glad we went. It was happy as well as sad to see them and at the same time knowing it’s prolly gonna be the last time. Sweet & bitter. Good thing? Or no?

My boss was so sweet to give me 2 hours off in the morning knowing I’d be tired from the concert but I came in about 8am anyway…miss them so…Couldn’t think of anything else except the 3 guys… AND… I brought in my Beyond CDs to work & tortured everyone - well, not everyone…actually just Frances coz she feels Beyond is so beng/lian. My boss doesn’t mind Beyond & Ah Bun listens to their old songs so no problem except for my poor chef. But surprisingly, she likes ‘Hai Kuo Tian Kong’. Of all the other songs she heard….

1 good news i have so far: I bought a laptop!!! Wooo Hoooo! I finally have a working computer! And a decent internet connection! Heh heh heh…. Thanks a million Morgaga!

                                      HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! JOY! JOY! JOY!

Next exciting thing: Sis & I have made a pact to go somewhere, next year! I’m SO  SO SO excited! Won’t let out anything about this till much later!

Next big thing in the shop…we had exotic soup, courtesy of Auntie Margaret!!! Guess what?! LIZARD SOUP! For lunch! But lunch was extremely superb that day. Soup was thick & flavourful! (Now we know why!!) Yum!!! Must be due to the ‘extra’ ingredient!! During lunch, we stirred the pot of soup so much but no sign of the lizard! Later in the afternoon, Lizhu was clearing out the pot when she came running down to us to tell us about it! Ah Bun went immediately to the toilet to ‘purge’ his lunch, Frances & I went up to see it! She started pulling at my uniform & screaming & I couldn’t stop laughin! Hahahaha! We were laughin so much that afternoon. Definitely a flavourful day! Check it out people!