It started a very nice early morning…then someone had to come wreck it all. At least for the morning anyway(until I got my sista’s msg)…. Damn it! Everythings my fault! Everything I do is wrong! Sure, because I ain’t important enuff. Not good enough. My words carry no weight. Yeah yeah yeah…. blah blah blah…

                                       DONT F**KIN ASK ME THEN!!!

Go rely on your stupid useless jack-ass-face loser slacker cum everything else shitty worker then!!!!! Really screwed up my mood & I ignored everyone. For a while. I was so pissed! I’m already trying my goddamn m*th**rf**kin best here alright???!!! Not to mention givin my whole entire wasted life & soul to you(generically speaking), & neglecting everyone who’s ever meant the whole f**kin screwed up world to me.

                                      NOW AIN’T THAT ENOUGH???!!!

I’m just an ordinary person here ‘ite??!!! Ain’t got not that much more to give!!! Now get the hell off my back!!! Later on, that someone’s attitute changed a ‘lil better & I calmed down & left it at that.

Anyway…we’re going to rock @ Beyond’s concert Oct 15th!!!!! WOOOO HOOOOO!!!!! I’m so excited!! This, alone, is enough to cheer me up!! Can’t wait to see & hear them but at the same time, I wish that day would never come coz that might mean we’ll never get to see them perform again… double-edged knife….damn it.

SY & I followed Frances to her gown fitting today!!! She was supposed to go try her sari @ Little India but she wouldn’t let us go so that’s why we ended up going for her gown fitting instead. Well, better than nothin’. She really looked so wonderful in her gown except for 1 or 2 little areas of her gown… SY & I both made quite a bit of noise & ‘comments’ on the gown & whether some things can be done & changed etc & I think we pissed the lady off a ‘lil.. It wasn’t anything personal but just coz we both wanted our dear bride-to-be to look really pretty! Stuff that the lady said sounded more theoretical than anything else. Everybody’s body differs, that I have to agree. But, 2 big-sized ladies can be very different as well. How can you term them under the same category???!!! Don’t just do things according to theory, do things that’ll suit the person! I mean, shouldn’t you trust your eyes more than your theory??? Some people are just plain stubborn… Obviously she doesn’t really take criticism in a positive manner. Room for improvement, lady!! Same goes for me, of course!

I messaged ‘kare san’ last night & we chatted over sms a ‘lil. hontoo ni isogashii. Well, guess I shouldn’t be pushing otherwise I’d only be adding to the stress ‘kare san’s’ feeling eh?? Just worried for ‘kare san’s’ health..*shake head*…tsk tsk tsk…

Lastly, I’m always here for support, sis! Never, never gonna leave your side! Just don’t keep things to yourself, yeah? Anything, just call or whatever, k? Miss you!!