People seem to be drifting away from me… I know I’ve been very bz with work & been neglecting my loved ones too much lately. Seem to be sending everyone away from me. Well, not that I can help it though… It’s sad, really. It’s only when I get to stop, take a back seat to look at the whole picture at what’s been happening that I realise how much I’ve actually missed. On the other hand, is it wrong of me to put my heart & soul into something which I love to do? And yet, happen to be so lucky as to have it as a career?  What’s more, I feel that this is the closest EVER to a perfect job as I or anybody can get! So…shouldn’t I treasure it?

Sacrifices, as I understand it, have to be made at some time or other but how do you weigh out the importance between your loved ones & your career? How can you even try to sacrifice either one?  I mean, even when they say that they fully support you & they understand & blah blah blah… should I really take it at face value & take it for granted that yes, they’ll always support me & they’ll always be understanding?  Or do I seem to everyone else that I simply don’t care?

The only thing I can do right now, is apologise. I don’t think I can stop & relax especially when my career foundation & standing isn’t even firm yet. Sometimes, due to some reasons, I’m not even sure I’m on the right track. Lost. So, I’m very SORRY guys, to all of you whom I haven’t been spending time with. I will try my best to do what I used to be able to do. No promises nor guarantees but I WILL try.