People seem to be drifting away from me… I know I’ve been very bz with work & been neglecting my loved ones too much lately. Seem to be sending everyone away from me. Well, not that I can help it though… It’s sad, really. It’s only when I get to stop, take a back seat to look at the whole picture at what’s been happening that I realise how much I’ve actually missed. On the other hand, is it wrong of me to put my heart & soul into something which I love to do? And yet, happen to be so lucky as to have it as a career?  What’s more, I feel that this is the closest EVER to a perfect job as I or anybody can get! So…shouldn’t I treasure it?

Sacrifices, as I understand it, have to be made at some time or other but how do you weigh out the importance between your loved ones & your career? How can you even try to sacrifice either one?  I mean, even when they say that they fully support you & they understand & blah blah blah… should I really take it at face value & take it for granted that yes, they’ll always support me & they’ll always be understanding?  Or do I seem to everyone else that I simply don’t care?

The only thing I can do right now, is apologise. I don’t think I can stop & relax especially when my career foundation & standing isn’t even firm yet. Sometimes, due to some reasons, I’m not even sure I’m on the right track. Lost. So, I’m very SORRY guys, to all of you whom I haven’t been spending time with. I will try my best to do what I used to be able to do. No promises nor guarantees but I WILL try.

10 minutes late for work today!! Mum came in to wake me up & I haven’t jumped out of bed so fast in a super long time! I actually dreamt that I was already showering in the M.S. apt, ready to go downstairs for work! Honest!! Nowadays, can’t seem to differentiate between my dreams & reality. They seem to cross over sometimes… Or am I just hallucinating?? Or maybe, dreams are the reality & the reality is all but a dream… *shrugs*

Ughh….a small croquembouche & rhumba to make in the morning…..I’m just thankful the orders are not for the morning…otherwise, I’m more than a dead duck/pig! Not busy at all today..tried a new cookie recipe - Amaretti. Pretty yummy, actually. And not so fattening!

Ended up messin’ around with my polymer clay. Somethin I’ve been putting off for a long time. Yeah, yeah…procrastinator…whateva. Made a teddy bear in a fuchsia bikini!

I’m off 2 days this week! WOO HOO!!!!

My boss is away…..away….in HK. The norm…would be Yippee hoo ha!! But howeva.. I don’t feel that way. I MISS MY BOSS ALREADY!!! And it’s only the 2nd miserable day! Am I sick or what? Man, I’m pathetic! Works ok…, the usual complaints & stuff but so far…well……it’s for me to know & not sure if for you guys to find out except you know who the rest of you special ones(or should I say, unfortunate ones??) are. Feel like I’m the most useless person in the place where I spend the most time. I feel that way & people make me feel that way… Feel sucky. Feels like I don’t belong anywhere. 9 to 5 job?….

Went jogging with Sis yesterday…felt so damn good. Think I’ll try to keep it up. We even got to soak in the jacuzzi, away from the ‘goggle-wearing’ perverts lurkin, waiting in the main pool..

Had my 2nd dance class on Thursday… the beginning was ok, had no partner so had to dance with my teacher. She’s fantastic, patient with all of us so far..said that I was pretty good on my 2nd class! But later help of the class…I lost it..! And for the rest of the night, I couldn’t sleep! Had to try to remember all the steps for the whole dance! Only sad thing is, I don’t have a partner. After dancing, I realised that I really loved it. I wished I could continue dancing the whole night, everyday! Honestly enjoyable when you can get the steps right & dance with the music! AWESOME!It probably might not sound that cool to be taking up ballroom dancing but. DO I SEEM TO YOU LIKE I CARE?? 

Got a msg from Kerry saying shes getting her bears in Aug & she’ll be needing help wrapping ‘em up! I’m so excited! I feel so guilty not being able to get her a good price for her wedding favors & therefore not being able to do it for her.. so I absolutely HAVE to do the packaging of her mini bears for her! At least I can make myself useful! Come on bears! Hit me!

There are so many things I wanna do but not enough time, not to even mention the darn dollar sign…Damn.

The other SUCKY thing is… I STILL don’t have a bloody pc to use! That’s why my blog this time is so darn long. It’s a few eons combined into 1. So hopefully you all didn’t fall asleep before gettin to this fullstop. I feel ancient already.

Heh….My photo’s up on the Hard Rock’s fame board of drinking!!!  Woo Hooo!!!! Such an amazing night!  6 of us in total: Frances & Segar, Sis & my bro-in-law, Eddie, Shawn & me. We had a bottle of Jack Daniels….with coke…YUM!!! Oh man…haven’t savoured alcohol in such a LONG time!!! Deprived…

Hey sis…you’re gonna jog at West Coast Park?? When??!!! I wanna go too!!! Blade of course….Have to lose weight…

Finally started my ballroom dance! Doing the Slow Foxtrot right now…It’s so addictive & once you start, ya really don’t wanna stop! Ha! Can’t believe even my cousin wants to take up Latin American! He’s one of the last persons I’d ever thought would be interested in dance!

Lizzy dear…when exactly are you comin back?? I’m looking for our drinkin session!! But…you know what?? Wala Wala did a minor make-over & guess what they did….they took away MY JUKEBOX!!!!!! Argh!!!!! We have to change venue….

This ‘panda’ is finally off today… don’t know if it’s a good thing or not..everytime I’m off, I seem to be down with something. For instance today…the big ‘M’ word-Migraine. Seems like the number of hours on an off day are never equivalent to work days. Thank God I love my job! I seem to be takin on a lot of activities lately..like diving, yoga, dancing, blading… never had so much going on before! NEVER thought yoga can be so tiring, that’s for sure! Just yesterday, sis told me about a promo going on at Hard Rock - 6 shots for $30!! Plus if you can down all in a row, you get to be on their Fame Board of drinking!! Woo hoo!!! We’re goin tomorrow night! (pssst…& Frances’ll be joinin us!!)

Happy, happy, joy, joy, joy!